Well at least you went out w/ a bang . I feel you Tom . That's why we're all here . I know it won't help but maybe this will give you a small respite .
http://www.devilducky.com/media/15215/
Click "Musical Note Icon" (top center)
Standby...
Click "What ?" 7 or 8 times (left column center)
Now don't you feel better ?